A 20TH ANNIVERSARY STATEMENT OF FAITH
Twenty years ago today I packed up my old station wagon and pulled out of Minneapolis,
listening to the tape “Go West Young Man,” dreaming of beginning Temenos Catholic
Worker–I was full of anticipation, thrilled to moving to San Francisco. What I was sub-
consciously doing was in the words of St. Ignatius: “abandoning all predictions of how life
turns out, judgments of what is good or bad, assessments of what does or doesn’t fit. We
simply live from our center.” And from that center I seek to live my life, and my calling.
When I talk of a theology of life I am talking from Jungian-Ignatian approach of seeing life
in the stories of the Gospels, in my life and the lives of those I encounter. For example
“depression”, is a “dark night of the soul” we all have to enter, and from that darkness we
encounter God. One of the gifts it has been repeatedly said that I have is that I let youth
into my life enough for them to identify and walk with me. For me it is allowing people to
share their stories without judgment, and with acceptance. I have clergy friends who love
taking a day to “theologize”, which I find boring, and rather like mutual masturbation. To
me theology is lived out.
After twenty years what do I believe, after three attempts on my life, so many deaths of the
young, struggling from one day to the next to make ends meet, seeing so little
change in so far as care for the poor. Simply:
“I believe in God the Father Almighty, creator of heaven and earth”–however creation
came to be–God created the world, loves the world–in all of its beauty, and calls us to
love that creation, to take care of it, to nurture, and reverence what God created.”
I believe in Jesus Christ, his only son our Lord, born of the Virgin Mary, suffered under
Pontius Pilate, crucified, dead and buried. On the third day he rose again, and ascended
into heaven and sits at the right hand of God–Jesus is the center of life, in him I find who I
am, and I follow him in caring for the poor, feeding the hungry, visiting the sick, burying the
dead, visiting those in prison. I believe he calls us to love God and to love our neighbor, .
as ourselves, and that is the all he asks–it matters not to him who we sleep with, what ,
what we believe–just loving one another as he has loved us. I believe he was crucified,
and that he rose again.
I believe in the Holy Spirit, the resurrection of the body, the communion of saints, the holy
catholic Church, and the life everlasting.” Each day as I celebrate the Eucharist, each day
as I move cooking, counseling, hanging out I feel the great company of the saints around
me. I see my parents and grand parents, Dorothy Day, Damien of Molokai, and
St. Francis as they surround and nurture me. It is that belief in the resurrection that
sustains me–and I follow Jesus into Galilee.
I am asked a lot, don’t you get lonely, do you not want a partner, someone to share your
with? The truth is that I have been in relationship with Jesus of Nazareth since I was 12.
That relationship has sustained me through years of rejection, prostitution, and success,
and in that relationship through service to others I have found complete fulfillment in my
life. Celibacy has always been a choice for me, freely given, so that I might truly serve
Jesus of Nazareth.
I have been blessed with being a queer–and the resulting persecution, and resurrection
that comes through that persecution–and the greatest blessing has been being able to
love people without condition, question, and to share Christ with them.
There are no regrets, only thanks to God the Creator, Redeemer and Sustainer, for these
twenty years! Deo Gratias! Thanks be to God!