Archive for October, 2008

October 28

October 29, 2008

Eph. 2:19-22; Lk. 6:12-16

Today we celebrate the Feast of Simon and Jude.  We only have there names, nothing is known about them, accept that they were apostles.  We live, we die, and we disappear from memory–but we are always in God’s memory, we are always remembered by God, and our lives are worth living. That is the message of this Scripture. We are valued, and we count.

Cooked all day.  Served meal. It got dark early.  There were a number of people I spent time with. Isacc, here for medical treatment, sleeping in Golden Gate Park. Interesting guy, he grows pot in Humbolt county.  Matt, and Bloc were by for needles and ate some food at home.  I went to bed at midnight, very tired. Deo Gratis! Thanks be to God!

30th Week in Ordinary Time

October 28, 2008

eph. 32-3:2; Lk. 13: 10-17

reading the old testament–2 kings i read of the violence–all about power, money, greed–Jesus offers us another way.  in the gospel he heals the woman–the welfare of human beings, the poorest of the poor, the weakest of the weak is his top priority–how do we respond to Jesus–we follow the same pattern as humans from day one–we hurt them, we are violent–in other words we crucify Jesus daily. day off, movie, tv. bed late. deo gratis! thanks be to God!

October 26, Ex. 22:20-26; I Thes. 1:5c 10; Mt. 22:34-40

October 27, 2008

spent the day reading, resting, had dinner with stephen, and then tv and bed. very tired today, very tired.

the culture in which we live promotes radical individualism.  we are told to think of ourselves first and to act always in our own best interest.  the message of Jesus is that of solidarity–and it challenges the individualism of our day. we are to think of our neighbors. only when this order is kept in tact in our lives do we experience the blessedness that Jesus has in store for us.  Selfishness and self-absorption have no place in the reign of God, for the reign of God is about love of God and the neighbor. Deo Gratis! Thanks be to God!

October 25 Eph. 4:7-16; Lk. 13:1-9

October 26, 2008

we are called to be accountable–Jesus expects us to bring the Kingdom into being.  spent afternoon with a youth group of students–as always worked with them on their ideas around needle exchange and seeing poverty first hand, in the midst of such wealth. out reach. 22 year old matt and 28 year old mike, struggling. foggy and cool night after a hot day. deo gratis! thanks be to God!

October 24 Eph. 4:1-6; Lk. 12:54-59

October 25, 2008

Paul calls us to love our vocation–since i was 12 i have sought to follow mine, very inadequately but have sought to follow it, but then that is all we are asked to do.

went to foodbank, and then to beach. hiked, looked for sand dollars to make christmas gifts. i am going to make gifts this year, a very simple christmas. dinner with vicki and kevin, outreach until 1:30 a.m.. jay, 30 broke his hip, having problems getting treatment. crazy on street because of halloween. Deo Gratis! Thanks be to God!

October 23, John of Capistrato

October 24, 2008

Eph. 3:14-21; Lk. 12:49-53

In the Gospel Jesus makes it clear he is to be first, his work is to be first. Much suffering results from us not being able to move beyond our fears and our inability to put him above ourselves.

cooked meal; went on a long hike up to the Castro to check into project 8 campaign.  served meal.  did outreach. spent 45 minutes talking to 30 year old Brent. bed at 2:00. Deo Gratis! Thanks be to God!

29th Week in Ordinary Time

October 23, 2008

Eph. 3:2-12; Lk. 12:39-48

today has been a very warm day, but i love the heat, always have, and so have enjoyed it. took alice, 86 to lunch in pacifica, to the store. spent evening doing outreach. several of the guys get nasty with me. they are the older ones who want more and more, and are getting less and less because of their age and their needs, and i am the one out there, and they expect me to give what i do not have. the gospel calls to be ready, and not put off, and so i try to be ready day in and day out.

styx woke me up at 6 am. this morning. he has been up all night. i took him out and bought him some coffee and a donut. he has a blood infection that does not get better because of the way he lives his life. the drugs have enslaved him to the point of absolute control. deo gratis! thanks be to God!

October 21 Eph. 2:12-22; Lk. 12:35-38

October 22, 2008

Meister Eckhart, a

“We own nothing … we are wayfarers who have been lentmany gifts, all of which are to be returned to the Creator.”

In theview of a modern interpreter of Eckhart’s, such a view would counter
hoarding and possessing and clinging to things with detachment,
solitude and letting go (Matthew Fox).  We hoard and we hoard and what for, nothing. So many people have nothing. Last night I thought of this as i did outreach. Over and over these guys grabbed and grabbed from each other.  The more you give, the more they wanted. They are no different then our executives, then people we know as our friends or ourselves for that matter. If we would but share equally what we have all would have enough. For you see when the casket is closed we are all equal any way–so why not share now, and all enjoy and be fed. Jesus tells us in our gospel to always be ready–and I have known a lot of people always getting ready–never enough money. It is kinda like me and cooking. People are amazed I feed a hundred and fifty people out of my place–but the reality is if I waited for some fine Church to let me use their kitchen or to get enough money for a nice apartment, then I would still be waiting–no Jesus means for us to be prepared with what we have, no matter how little.

I spent all day cooking, it was hot, and served the meal.  A seminary student doing a week retreat of sleeping on the street was at one of the meals. Complaining about how church members at a local church treated him when he attended.  People are people, you love them where they are. I may have been a little harsh with him in the sense he is having fun, not seeing the reality of the streets, but I was tired. I did outreach until 1:30 a. m. Mike was hungry so I spent time with him and bought him some donuts, fifteen others were out.  Nick, 20, was drawing. Typical night. Deo Gratis! Thanks be to God!

October 20, 2008 Eph. 2:1-10; Lk. 12:13-21

October 21, 2008

My day off!!  Celebrated the Eucharist.  The Eucharist each morning sustains me. At times I feel like just saying to hell with it all, but the Eucharist brings me in connection with those who have gone before me and are present with me still. It brings me hope in the present, comfort for the future. The Landowner is like many, he believes his material possessions will sustain him but oh how empty he is, and how wrong he is. At the present I am living day to day, minute to minute. There is little money, but I am content.  Styx encountered me on the street, needed to use phone, his battery had run down. He is so strung out, his life is a shambles. I went out to the beach in Marin and walked for three hours and then went to Keenan’s for dinner.  Home and to bed.  Good day off. Deo Gratis! Thanks be to God!

October 19, Is. 54:1, 4-6; I Thess. 1:1-5; Mt. 22:15-21

October 20, 2008

For me the Gospel is saying that all belongs to God, and Jesus is simply using humor to say that–it does not matter what we give to who–it all belongs to God. Spent day watching T.V., dinner with Stephen, went to program on Proposition 8 at Jones Memorial, came home. Styx, 22 , showed up sick, feverish, stayed to early morning and slept on my bed, while i worked on stuff on the computer and finally I sent him out. He is like so all of the guys out there, the drugs overwhelmed their lives, their relationships, and brings with it entitlement. He finds it hard to understand people can only do so much. He has abscess he has had for months, and does not take care of, and is angry because it will not go away. Takes no responsibility for his own actions.  I find myself overwhelmed with people’s needs. Like 22 year old Mike night before last in my face because I would not give him money–quote: “You have plenty of money.” Made me mad as hell.  Number one at the moment I am barely holding my head above water, and most of money goes for their needs to begin with, and number two just the sense of entitlement. I would never think of saying that to people I know.  People think I am tough, and rude sometimes, when i am in reality just putting down the boundaries to protect myself. I live here and am accessible and if I do not these guys would overwhelm me. I know that this is work I do well, I love doing, but there are times–Deo Gratis! Thanks be to God!