Archive for March, 2010

“We Are All Judas”

March 30, 2010

John 13:21-38:  Teresa of Avila prayed:  “Although I have often abandoned you, O Lord, you have never abandoned me.  Your hand of love is always outstretched towards me, even when I stubbornly look the other way. And your gentle voice constantly calls me, even when I obstinately refuse to listen.”  Judas is always judged harshly–but how harshly was he judged by Jesus?  I think of the times I have done wrong things, never intentional, but I get in a situation where for some reason I can not get out of it.  Judas I believe did the same thing. I believe he got into the situation of betraying Jesus, and found himself caught in it by not being able to say “no”.  Jesus forgives me time and time again, even when I am Judas.  I have been cooking all day, will serve the meal, and do outreach tonight. Deo Gratias! Thanks be to God!

“The Moment”

March 30, 2010

John 12:1-6″. . .Mary, took a pound of costly perfume, made with nard, anointed Jesus’ feet and wiped them with her hair.”

Tonight as I gave out socks, food, and needles, I thought of this passage in the Haight and on Polk.  The gatefulness in their eyes touched me.  I felt like I was anointing the feet of Jesus, in the moment. I am often criticized for my theology of the “moment”, for not working towards lasting results, but tonight in the moment I found myself in the eternal moment–what more can one asked.  Deo Gratias! Thanks be to God!

“My Heart’s Blood”

March 28, 2010

Palm Sunday Lk. 23:1-49 ” Neither revolutions nor faith is won without keen sufferings.  For me Christ was not to be bought for thirty pieces of silver but with my heart’s blood.  We do not buy cheap in this market.” Dorothy Day The ultimate Christian act is to risk our own comfort, convenience or even life for the sake of others.  I remember s seminarian who basically walked away from me because “you can be killed, you risk your life.” Another commented to me rather scared: “You need to look at your life before it is to late to regain your status and financial security.  To many people my life appears to be hard and difficult, but for me it is joyous and filled with grace. Like Dorothy said:

“Martyrdom is not gallantly standing before a firing squad.  Usually
it is losing a job because of not taking a loyalty oath or not buying
a war bond or not paying a tax.”  —-Dorothy Day

And so for me walking to the cross means to give up what society says it is our reward, financial security, to be with those who have nothing.  For I know that if I had had money, prestige, and the respect of the culture I would have nothing.  This week for me is a recommitment of my own journey to the Cross. Deo Gratias! Thanks be to God!

“Conscience Formation”

March 27, 2010

“Conscience Formation” Jn. 11:45-56: Conscience formation is a profound and a necessary part of life. It enables us to distinquish holiness from expedience. When we turn our consciences over to authority–any authority-just because it is an authority, we run the risk of betraying Jesus for peronal gai…n. Worked on office stuff, will be doing outreach, going into Holy Week in a prayerful mood. Deo Gratias! Thanks be to God!

“Stones”

March 27, 2010

Jn. 1t0:31-42 ” The Jews picked up stones to throw at Jesus. . .”

It takes courage to speak the truth–and for me it is the truth about homelessness, the truth about people’s use of wealth, and about living our lives simply.  I receive many times much hostility and disdain for the way I live my life and proclaim the gospel.  It takes strength to challenge public opinion.  It is much easier to be silent than to speak the truth when speaking stands to isolate us.  Being a witness to the Word also brings the Word.  For me the Word has become the Word as I have sought to speak the truth.  I am looked upon by many as weird, but you know that is ok–for the I know I walk the road to Calvary. I spent the day watching TV and reading, went to my birthday party thrown by friends, and am doing outreach. I spent time with Damien, whom I have known for fifteen years, still struggling, really mentally ill, and so it goes, it is a damn good life. Deo Gratias! Glory be to God!

“Always A Mystery”

March 26, 2010

Lk. 1:26-38-“Annunication of the Lord” “Mary was deeply troubled by the angel’s message.”

Each of us is called to follow Jesus. It is often unclear, often not easy, always a mystery. Yet God is with us, as the angel was with Mary, blessing us, giving us strength, to do what we are being called to do.  People ask me my plans, looked concerned for my future, and I laugh because all is ultimately in the hands of God.  When I began ministry I would never have dreamed I would be doing this work, and it has been a difficult, scary, but a joyous journey. Served meal tonight, tomorrow my birthday–Deo Gratias! Thanks be to God!

“We Are Our Own Worst Enemies”

March 25, 2010

John 8:31-42–“I am telling you the truth:  everyone who sins is a slave of sin.” It takes a lot of living to finally realize that each of us is in bondage to ourselves.  It is our desires, our angers, our arrogance, that enslave us and not anyone else.  But from internal bondage only following Jesus can set us free.  As I approach my birthday and look back I see how I my own bondage has been a result of myself, and how as I let Jesus enter into my life am I set free.  I spent the day going to the dentist, spending time with Peter, going to dinner with a friend, to the food bank and outreach tonight. Deo Gratias! Thanks be to God!

“We Are Not Alone”

March 24, 2010

Jn. 8:21-30-“He who sent me is with me; he has not left me alone.”

To feel that we are alone in the dark places of life, to feel helpless in the face of what’s happening to us is frightening, lonely experience.  But it is not a real one.The God who made us is in us and with us always. What is asked of us now is to let God be God.  I have spent the day cooking, serving meal, and will be doing outreach. Deo Gratias! Thanks be to God!

“The Light of the World and the Light of Life”

March 22, 2010

Jn. 8:12-20-“Whoever will follow me will have the light of life and will not walk in darkness.” We all follow someone or something.  The only question is whether or not we become better or worse for it, more full of light or mired in darkness.  To follow Jesus is to follow life to its center, its end, to goodness, to God. This past week I have spent time with one adult after another–who have money, good health–but who are so dark spiritually that they bring you down if you hang out with them. I basically have nothing compared to them, and yet my world is full of light and goodness, rather than the darkness that they seem to live in. Trusting in Jesus brings light to my life. Deo Gratias! Thanks be to God!

“We Are Responsible”

March 21, 2010

Jn. 7: 40-53-“Have you ever known one of the authorities or one pharisee to believe in him?”

In the end, we are all responsible for our own decisions, our own insights–for what we believe about Jesus.  We can not hand over our souls to anyone-not even teachers and theologians who, history shows us have also been wrong.  For me anything that is hurtful to another human being is not of God–and no man’s law will change that.  For ultimately I hold my own soul in my own hands.  I have spent the day saying mass, resting, and will outreach tonight. Deo Gratias! Thanks be to God!