November 2, Rev. 22:1-7; Lk. 21:34-36 |
saw movie “Milk” today. strange how we still fight the same battles, and how only a few people really stand up for anything, we are so afraid and get beaten down byt he system. ran into styx on the street, hurting from abcess. i have seen so many guys through the years who suffer so unintentionally, and to death itself, the drugs control their every move. reveleation is reminder of the victory that is ultimately in God’s hands, that is what i hope in, what i live in, for the victory is seen in moments now. in the movie the day the church was seen in such a negative way, and in recent weeks with proposition 8 it is so understandable. the Jesus proclaimed is not the Jesus i know, and i get sickly depressed. Dorothy Day talks of cultivating a “holy indifference” to life, to being aware but not letting things bother you, to see people for what they are, yet with love, but not getting so caught u within the drama. that is what i have to do all the time. people hate me, they say things, they never follow through, and so i accept them. she says: “without prayer we could not continue. as breath is to the body, prayer is to the soul. without it we are smothered by the cares of this place, which seems sometimes like a camp of refugees.” without prayer, without the eucharist i could not continue day in day out, they sustain me, they give me the hope. deo gratis! thanks be to God! |
Archive for November, 2008
Saturday after Thanksgiving
November 30, 2008November 2, Rev. 22:1-7; Lk. 21:34-36 |
Day after Thanksgiving
November 29, 2008November 28, 34th Week in Ordinary Time Lk. 21:29-33 20 year old JJ, depressed, struggling with sexuality, speed freak spent some time, very lonely. Justin 24, beedn on streets since he was 12, still trying to make it rich, living with old guy. mike, 30, came by, working in lumber industry in oregon. met him when he was 16 out here, still struggling with drugs, and looks back to the “old days” even though he has a job and a place to live. attended the milk memorial last night. reminder to me of the pain that has gone into the journey for freedom for queers, and of the constant struggle for human rights. there will always be this struggle because people for the most part want wealth and privilege, that is why Jesus was crucified. as the scriptures say summer is near as long as we stay with the the struggle. outreach, strange how those guys are a part of my life. bed at 2. deo gratis! thanks be to God!
Thanksgiving Day
November 28, 2008Thanksgiving Day, November 27; 34th Week in Ordinary Time
34th Week in Ordinary Time
November 27, 2008November 26 Lk. 21:12-19 |
“Through persverance you will possess your own selves.” (19) is the way. I persevere, fail, but i persevere. even in my most depressed and sad days i seek to persevere and i do get a glimpse of the reigh of God. i had lunch with mary lou, dinner with joey, did some outreach, prepared thanksgiving meal to cook tomorrow. i find myself feeling a part from my ministerial colleagues, their fancy salaries, houses, and i realize that i do not separate myself from the people i serve, and what i go through they go through in dealing with people. solidarity is hell, but then there is grace. deo gratis! thanks be to God! |
Tuesday
November 26, 2008November 25, Catherine of Alexandria
had proto test today, served meal with ken and rose, had dinner. did outreach. each person is Jesus, no matter how difficult. people always thinking Jesus is coming, he is here now. feeling like i have not done much with my life. feeling like i have failed. what do i do–needle exchange, feed people–in God’s eyes maybe that is enough. deo gratis! thanks be to God!
Thanksgiving Week
November 25, 2008November 24, Andrew Dung-L:ac and Companions/Lk. 21:1-4
the elderly woman is a symbol that all we have is God, and that we are to be aware that our horading and our selfishness leads us to destruction. the reality is if everyone in the world shared there would be no hunger or oppression. preparing for a medical test tomorrow, taking the laxative and being patient, no food, clear liquids. 23 year old bobby came by for birthday money and to visit, high as a kite. mike pushed me for money for drugs, and i have no problem saying “no”. the reality is alot of these guys when they are young throw their lives away, and i am not going to help him do that. i ran some errands, bed at midnight. deo gratis! thanks be to God!
November 23, Christ the King
November 24, 2008
Cecilia
November 23, 2008November 22, Luike 20:27-40