Abandon All to God

Abandon Everything to God!

Matthew 14:22-36New International Version

Jesus Walks on the Water

22 Immediately Jesus made the disciples get into the boat and go on ahead of him to the other side, while he dismissed the crowd. 23 After he had dismissed them, he went up on a mountainside by himself to pray. Later that night, he was there alone, 24, and the boat was already a considerable distance from land, buffeted by the waves because the wind was against it.

25 Shortly before dawn Jesus went out to them, walking on the lake. 26 When the disciples saw him walking on the lake, they were terrified. “It’s a ghost,” they said, and cried out in fear.

27 But Jesus immediately said to them: “Take courage! It is I. Don’t be afraid.”

28 “Lord, if it’s you,” Peter replied, “tell me to come to you on the water.”

29 “Come,” he said.

Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. 30 But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!”

31 Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. “You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?”

32 And when they climbed into the boat, the wind died down. 33 Then those who were in the boat worshiped him, saying, “Truly you are the Son of God.”

34 When they had crossed over, they landed at Gennesaret. 35 And when the men of that place recognized Jesus, they sent word to all the surrounding country. People brought all their sick to him 36 and begged him to let the sick just touch the edge of his cloak, and all who touched it were healed.


These are days of much pain, grief, doubt, and feelings of failure. As the emotional and physical pain has come, so has my heart been opened to simply being with people, without judgment. Nothing matters except God, and God only loves.

I am learning to let God love me the way God wants, be it through the hurting of my left side, the pain of surgery in my mouth, the nightmares of a suicide. It is difficult for me to surrender, and trust in God. But each day as I do, I find myself at peace.

And I know that this is a time commitment to my third act of ministry as I follow Jesus into Galilee, no longer worrying about what people think, but simply following and loving each person who comes to me, without reservation. It was rather strange after being beaten up to find no anger towards the young guy, simply compassion and forgiveness. In those moments I felt a love of God, as never before, and I knew we are to love each person no matter what. And so in the days ahead my prayer is  the Prayer for Abandonment of Charles de Foucauld:

Father, I abandon myself into your hands,

do with me what you will.

Whatever you may do, I thank you;

I am ready for all, I accept all.

Let only your will be done in me, and in all your creatures.

I wish no more than this O Lord.

Into your hands I commend my soul;

I offer it to you with all the love of my heart,

for I love you, Lord, and so need to give myself,

to surrender myself into your hands without reserve,

and with boundless confidence, for you are my

I have found that all we have to hold onto is God, and that “On the stormy tossed sea of life all we have is our fiercer loyalty to one another.” Do Gratias! Thanks be to God!



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