Passionately In love With God”

Passionately In Love With God

Passionately in Love with God
Genesis 32: 22-31. . . .:30 “So Jacob called the name of the place Peniel,[c] saying, “For I have seen God face to face, and yet my life has been delivered.” 31 The sun rose upon him as he passed Penuel, limping because of his hip.”
The summer of my nineteenth year, a friend and I  were in Kansas City, looking at a prospective seminary. It was around mid night, on a very hot and humid evening. As my friend and I  walked in one of the poorer parts  of  town we encountered a black street evangelist preaching to a large crowd. He turned his eyes to us, and looked me straight in the eye, pointed his finger, and said, “The day is coming when you will walk with a limp, and become  a tool of healing for thousands.” At the time he seemed crazy, but it seems he was on target.
Through the years I have come to walk with a limp, from the pain experienced in my life and through my ministry; but from that immense pain, from being kicked “outside the gates,” and  letting the pain of others into my life, has come healing for thousands, and given  me a gift– joy!
Nouwen describes ministry:
“All the great saints in history about whom I have read have been people who were so passionately in love with God that they were completely free to love other people in a deep, effective way, without any strings attached. True charity is gratuitous love, a love that gives gratuitously and receives gratuitously. It is following the first commandment that asks us to give everything we have to God and that makes the second commandment truly possible. . . .
We are touching here on the source of much of the suffering in our contemporary society. We have such a need for love that we often expect from our fellow human beings something that only God can give, and then we quickly end up being angry, resentful, lustful, and sometimes even violent. As soon as the first commandment is no longer truly the first, our society moves to the edge of self-destruction.”
Sue Monk Kid asks us: “What has happened to our ability to dwell in unknowing, to live inside a question and coexist with the tensions of uncertainty?” 
In my wrestling with God, living with  a limp, I have learned to  “dwell in unknowing, to live inside a question and coexist with the tensions of uncertainty.” 
I was once told fearfully by a seminarian, “you are  going down the rabbit hole,” and hopefully I am, for only in being passionately in love with God, to give everything we have away in loving others, can the world be saved and can we be saved.  Deo Gratias! Thanks be to God!


Fr. River Damien Sims, sfw, D.Min., D.S.T.
P.O. Box 642656
San Francisco, CA 94164

“Scripture is sharper than a sword. Like a scalpel, it cuts through what is diseased and damaged, cuts through lies and confusion, cuts through the stories we tell ourselves, to reveal the truth. The stories of scripture surprise, disturb, confound and, with good intention, cut. We need help and practice to listen, to receive powerful, sharp, healing words of life.”

-Br. Luke Ditewig

“My life is based on pain, passion, and purpose.”

Rep. Elijah Cummins


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