Living on the Edge

LIVING ON THE EDGE

“I am the Alpha and the Omega, the beginning and the end.”Rev. 22:13

Today Fr. Dan Berigan was buried, the world is a little less friendly with out his presence.

This month I have eliminated basically all dinner and luncheon engagements because I am putting the time into my dissertation. What I have noticed is that what one of my friends tells me is true, “You talk and act like a kid and you have more kid friends than adults.”  I laugh about it, but what I notice is unless I set up lunch or dinner engagements I see no adults. Their lives are busy, and my life is lived at odd hours, and odd places. We just do not move in the same circles.

The times I have been  in the hospital or sick, it is my younger friends who seem to be there. The other night in the hospital I talked to a couple of people on the phone, and one came and  picked me up, but it was my younger friends who sat with me during that time; when I was sick last summer, the same way. So I guess I do hang out with “kids” more than I do with adults. To me they are my friends, just people, people who care.

This month is also a month of memories. Zach died fifteen years ago, my brother was killed this month, and my mom and dad died. There is sadness, yet for me it is simply a part of life. I conducted a memorial service for two of my street guys Wednesday, and I reflected on how death is a part of life, we all will die, but there is much joy in the resurrection.  That is where I find hope, and strength. When the Angel of Death flutters around me has she has two weeks ago, I know that “all things work together for good for those who love God.”  Death is never easy, facing the fear of death is not easy, and seeing death is not easy, that is why the resurrection is so important.

Thirdly, Lady Gaga says “If you’re not pissing somebody off, you’re not doing your job.” In writing this dissertation I am finding that I am seeing myself for who I am–I am a trouble maker, I am difficult, and I do piss people off.  The truth is that is the most likable part of me, it is when I am most real.

Jesus makes life good, and for that let us be thankful. Deo Gratias! Thanks be to God!

Temenos Catholic Worker

P.O. Box 642656

San Francisco, CA 94164

415-305-2124

http://www.temenos.org

 

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