Fighting the Monsters

Aldersgate and Pentecost May 24, 2015  “Fighting the Monsters” Acts 2:1-11

“He who fights with monsters might take care lest he thereby become a monster. And if you gaze for long into an abyss, the abyss gazes also into you.”

Friedrich Nietzsche

Through twenty years of fighting the monsters I have learned that to keep from falling  into the abyss one must gaze at Jesus, keep focused and centered on Him.  For i walk a tight line, and a line that I can fall off of any time.  But it is in fighting the monsters that we find life. life that is fulfilling, and life that is giving. Fighting the monsters of homophobia within oneself, hate and resentment towards others and letting go to God are what I have learned is what brings healing and joy.

On this Pentecost I think of Aldersgate where John Wesley felt his heart strangely warmed, and his life and  theology changed my life, as have the lives and theology of Damien of Molokai, Dorothy Day, Francis of Assisi, and Ignatius of Loyola.  The Holy Spirit has moved and  continues to move. My journey will be coming to an end the next few years and I will move into that great communion of the saints, and I will rejoice that through that Spirit I have been justified in my faith.

Until then I will continue to fight the monsters and i will walk with young men like “Zek” who is 21, and calls himself a “traveler”, he travels from one place to another searching for his  faith, his dream in one form or another. He is not interested in housing, just  something to eat, a warm place to hang, a friend–and for that privilege I am grateful to John Wesley/Dorothy Day/Francis of Assisi/and Ignatius of Loyola–and most of all to Jesus of Nazareth–for that brings me the happiness and joy of Pentecost and Aldersgate. Deo Gratias! Thanks be to God!

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