December 26 “Truth” Feast of St. Stephen Acts 6:8-10, 7:54-59, Matt. 10:17-22

Dr. Will Tuttle writes: “Rising above anger and despair while still keeping our hearts open to the ocean of cruelty, indifference, and suffering on this earth is not easy. It requires cultivating wisdom and compassion—both the inner silent receptivity that links us to the eternal truth of our being and the outer actions of serving and helping others that give meaning to our life.”

Last night around 1:00 a.m. I sat with a woman sleeping outside the church for 5 hours, as she cried, and was in fear. She has severe mental illness, will not move from where she is sleeping, and the problems is the garbage cans are sitting in front of her to be emptied this morning and to her they come alive and threaten to kill her. She had pushed them over, and I was angry as I cleaned them up and than it hit me, she could not help it. So I sat with her and listened, and since she would not move and I could not move the garbage cans I sat there. In the midst of all of this she shared of her abusive husband, and I pieced together her life, She is broken, actually needs to be in a managed care facility that we do not have in California, and so for me the truth hurt, hurt deeply, and all I could do was hold her hand and sit. I just came in because it was getting light and she could sleep. A friend commented you are going to tear yourself to pieces if you continue to do this–and my answer remains as it has for years–That is where I find meaning–like the Velveteen Rabbit I find meaning in giving myself way, that is for me the call of the Gospel. And that should be the call of the Gospel for all Christians to give ourselves away until we are all ragged in the end. Deo Gratias! Thanks be to God!

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