Archive for October, 2013

October 18, 2013

October 18, 2013, Feast of St.Luke , Luke 10:1-9

The reign of God arrives only when people struggle with what it means to eat and drink together–without ulterior motives, with equality, with acceptance, and “without ulterior motive”-without expecting anything in return. No matter how status in life we always want more, and we always have an ulterior motive–only when we move beyond those will the reign of God arrive.  On my mind now is that the young guys and older man come together–wanting something from the other–and when one does not get it–violence, hatred erupts–and that is a symbol of our society at large–the reign comes with we come together in equality. Deo Gratias! Thanks be to God!

The Infernao by Joseph P. Ingles

October 17, 2013

The Inferno by Joseph P. Ingle is the story of Philip Workman’s crime, imprisonment, conversion, and execution.  It is a story of a man who in the depths of being raised by a father who abused him, turned to drugs, and a life of crime, convicted of killing a man, came face to face with himself and found redemption, even in the face of a criminal system bent on his death.

Philip Workman during the course of his prison system uncovered evidence that he did not kill the policeman, evidence that without a doubt raised severe questions–false witness, bullet not fitting his gun, etc.  Yet the criminal justice system of Tennessee would not, and could not see beyond the conviction. It was set on execution.  Philip’s story is the story of many through out this country, and of a system that is flawed and broken.

Through the years I have seen many murders, have experienced much pain myself, but it is only through grace and forgiveness can one find healing.  To kill another human being, even in the name of justice, is simply carrying on the legacy of killing. A criminal justice system that kills people is one that sets his face towards death, destruction, and kills our souls as well.

Philip Workman’s least request was to give his final meal of a vegetarian pizza to a homeless person, that was refused–because the system did not “GIVE TO CHARITY.”  My we find charity in our hearts and fight with all of our might to end this system of death.

We are not predatory by nature, but we’ve been taught that we are, in the most potent way possible: we’ve been raised from birth to eat like predators. We’ve thus been initiated into a predatory culture and been forced to see ourselves at the deepest levels as predators. Farming animals is simply a refined and perverse form of predation in which the animals are confined before being attacked and killed. It doesn’t stop with animals, however. Dr. Will Tuttle

October 16, 2013

October 16 

Prayer Desire:  ” I beg God, even to the point of tears, to see and accept my complicity with sin in this world.”


In working the Spiritual Exercises one aspect is looking at sin in our lives, evil present in our liv es, and our complicity with sin.

I look back through my life and there are times when evil was very present–and I realize our lives are a ying and the yang between good and evil. I look evil directly into the eye every day of my life life and only through acknowledging its presence in my life can I face it in the lives of others. By not running, but facing it–Jesus enters and evil backs off.  We live ying and yang lives. Deo Gratias! Thanks be to God!

October 16, 2013

October 16–Luke 11:42-46–St. Margaret Mary Alacoque

“Justice and the love of God” are what matter–not what we wear, not what we believe, but our actions of justice and loving God as we know God.  St. Margaret Mary had the vision of the Sacred Heart of Jesus–the heart of love coming from within–may we develope that heart for our brothers and sisters in all levels of life.  People comment that I only put a drop in the bucket when it comes to feeding people, but if a 100 people did the same each day–all of the homeless in San Francisco would be fed–so think what would happen if we had 100, million drops or more across the world–it begins with one of us, and from within. Psalm 139 speaks to us about God knowing each and everyone of us from within–and I believe God loves each of us because each of us has the potential for so much good.  Deo Gratias! Thanks be to God!

Intuition liberates, connects, illumines—and threatens our herding culture’s underlying paradigm of violent oppression of animals and of the feminine. Intuition sees the shadow clearly, and disarms it by embracing it and not feeding it. It sees the animal hidden in the hot dog, ice cream, and omelette, feels her misery and fear, and embraces her with love.


Dr. Will Tuttle

October 15, 2013

Psalm 139

I met with a private investigator this afternoon on a case, with the possibility of testifying on the “culture of Polk Street, and the kids of Polk.” It is a sad case and my heart is torn. I think of my own life and of how my life is an “open book” to God, and God accepts me for me, and uses me for this work.  No matter how much I look back at my what I have been, what I know I was called to this work before my birth, and all the pain, heart ache, I have gone through prepared me for it.  And I know without a doubt this is where I belong.  And I know I will give my life for God, wholeheartedly. Deo Gratias! Thanks be to God!

October 15, 2013

October 15, Teresa of Avila

Luke 11:37-41

Teresa was a tough cookie, she, like Jesus, called it like it is.  A young Haight Street youth commented to me, “I like you because you do not bull shit,” and the reality is half of our problems are because we skirt around the subject.  Teresa commented: “The important thing is to think so much; and so do that which best stirs you to love.”  I have tried to stop thinking so much, because it simply weighs me down, I simply try to love. Will Tuttle has an excellent quote that speaks to me today:

Evolution implies not only change but transformation. In world mythology, when heroes refuse the call to leave home to take the evolutionary journey, they become sick. For us as a culture it is the same.

The evolutionary journey is being transformed through love.  Deo Gratias! Thanks be to God!

October 14, 2013

Lk. 11:29-32  St. Callistus

St. Callitus was a pope who was for his time open to people, for example he admitted murders and adulters back to communion into the Church. He was martyred for it.  Our scripture calls us to see Jesus in our midst in the most unseen ways. I see Jesus in each homeless person I meet, in each person of wealth whose lives are sterile and lifeless, that I meet, in each person of love that I meet–and seeing Jesus upturns our ways of looking at the culture wars, our ways of eating, in fact all of our lives–Dr. Will Tuttle sums it up for me:

Our love, to actually be love, must be acted upon and lived. Developing our capacity for love is not only the means of evolution; it is the end as well, and when we fully embody love, we will know the truth of our oneness with all life. This makes us free.

October 13, 2013
October 13 “Book Review of “Your Unique Life” by Marc Gafni
As I reflected on the Lectionary text today this book stands out. The text is about the ten lepers and only one came back to thank Jesus for the healing.  He is his unique self. This book is about developing our unique selves.  Rather then seeking glory, money, power, prestige one should appreciate and love him or herself for their uniqueness. My sense is the author would like to see a creation of a world religion removing the prejudices and the biases in the various religions. For me, a part my unique self is being a follower of Jesus, letting go of the institutional prejudices but practicing the basic theme of the Judaeo-Christian tradition, “To love the Lord your God with all of your heart, soul, and mind, and your neighbor as yourself.  One quote stood out for me:
“Peace will come into the world when each person can hear themselves for who they are, without needing to drown out all the other voices.” Marc Gafni
When we accept each other in our own uniqueness–there will be peace. Deo Gratias! Thanks be to God! —

October 12, 2013

Lk. 11:27-28-October 12–Silence is Golden

“Silence is golden,” is a from a old song, but is it? My biological father walked way from my mother when I was 4, she never spoke of him again, it has disturbed me all of my life; my adopted dad’s family walked away from him and only came back when he died, leaving me with the decision whether or not to let them be a part of the funeral, terribly disturbing; my former church denomination, and friends I had had for twenty years, turned their backs on me when I came out–terrifying;  friends through the years have done the same; a cousin I was close to growing up turned his back on me when I came out–never spoke to me again–again painful; silence can be used as a  horrifying weapon. That is why I am never silent with any one–I will always speak and tell one what is the problem; that is why I have never dismissed anyone by email–for in the talking, one can meet the other, and see the other for who he or she is.  There is never right nor wrong on either side, there is a thin line in which to meet.

Silence is golden–for in the silence I find gold present to me–in the worst of times-God speaking and comforting, assuring me that I am not alone. Silence is golden for in the silence of the night, I am not alone, Jesus is present.

I believe what Jesus is saying to us in the Scripture this morning is that we are blessed when we keep his Word–which is to be him to others–to love them, to speak to them–for silence is both death and life. Deo Gratias! Thanks be to God!

We will only survive and thrive if we recognize the central power of our meals to shape our consciousness. Food is eaten and becomes the physical vehicle of consciousness, and consciousness chooses what to incorporate into itself from itself. Do we cultivate and eat fear or love? Terrorized animals or nurtured plants? We cannot build a tower of love with bricks of cruelty. Dr. Will Tuttle

October 11, 2013

Lk. 11:15-26 “National Coming Out Day”

Through the years I have come out in so many ways, and am still coming out.  Coming out to simply being a human in his or her fullness, loving, and accepting people for who they are without the labels, and the stereotypes.   One aspect of my shadow is that judging others, and our Scripture today reminds me that when I notice a bad spirit in my heart towards someone I should ask Jesus to free me.  The question I asked myself today: “Am I divided within myself, or do I try to be fully made over to Jesus as his disciple?” Deo Gratias! Thanks be to God!