Swimming Upstream

2 Corinthians 5:14-18  Feast of St. Magdalene  “Swimming Upstream”

 

“So then, if anyone is in Christ, that person is a part of the new creation.  The old things have gone away, and look, new things have arrived.”

This has been a long week, a very long week. I feel like I am swimming upstream.  I have been working with a youth group, whom I am not sure was very happy with me, and I did the best that I could with them,–but the reality is the leadership never had a conversation with me about what they really wanted, one person did–and I should never have worked with them without that conversation, that is my fault–but  I really did the best that I could.  I have had two colleagues tell others how “weird he is,” and you know I find them rather weird to, but so what we are all kind of weird.  It hurts, though, no matter what one can say, words, and actions hurt. I saw that last night at the meal, one fight after another because individuals would say the most hateful, and mean things to each other.  I understand the way these guys feel though–they are look down upon and rejected by society in general. The difference is that I have chosen to swim upstream, a very deliberate choice. I remember one minister telling me I was choosing a hard road years ago, and if I did not turn back I might not be able to. The reality is I can not turn back now–I could not live with myself.  I have a hunch it was shocking to the leaders of this youth group to hear me say outright I do not work with the system, but what they did not hear is that I have tried through the years, and the people I work with simply do not fit into the system–they have failed, so in order to work with them I  do not work within the system. It is impossible to put a square peg in a round hole.  People who think that I am “weird” and different’ do not seem to see that I work with people who are on the outside of the system, and it is nearly impossible for them to be within it.  Therefore I do not work within the system, and therefore I criticize the system for failing to try to provide for working with them. The system does the best that it can, but it fails a hell of a lot of people, and being human it always will, but that does not mean I am condemning it, I am just saying what I think it is true–it fails alot of people, and so I work with them as others do as well. And so I like my wounds, and face the day, and continue to swim upstream–like Mary Magdalene. Deo Gratias! Thanks be to God!

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