Archive for July, 2010

“Love Is What Counts”

July 16, 2010

Mt. 11: 28-30-“For the yoke I will give you is easy and the load I will put on you is light.”  Love God and your neighbor Jesus says. That is the load we are expected to carry through life.  Great asceticism is of our own making but good as it may be only love is the yoke that counts in the end.  Mt. 12:1-8: “It is kindness that I want, not animal sacrifices.:  Doing rituals and keeping rules is easy–they can make us feel so religious, but the core of religion–loving kindness and care for others.  The heart of faith, the heart of religion is love–not how well you do the liturgy, not how you interpret the Scriptures–it is the act of love–even to people who are not lovable.  Last night we served the meal, we gave those guys love, each day I touch the lives of young men and women, and they asked me what I really want–for I asked nothing from them.  We are called to love without expecting anything. Deo Gratias! Thanks be to God!

“Knowing God”

July 15, 2010

Matthew 11:25-27:  One of Jesus’ principle missions was to make God his Father known.  People then, as now, suffered from having God portrayed as harsh or punitive. Jesus emphasizes that he wants people know God as love, and to know God intimately. People blame God for everything, rather than looking at their own humanity, expecting the perfect life. There was a homeless woman getting some stuff out of her storage container today and she was telling me how she was grateful to God for being with her and her family as they struggled.  God is near to us, we simply need to look at God as someone who loves us, walks with us, not as a “candy man” or as someone who is always looking to punish–we punish ourselves by the choices we make. Deo Gratias! Thanks be to God!


July 14, 2010

Mt. 11:20-24 Jesus seems to expect to see change in us and prayer helps us change. I look back at my own life  I see the how I have changed over the years.  Even as I look back to the past few years I have changed. It is strange how I have cease to worry about the future and to have faith that all will be well.  I believe that praying the daily office has ingrained in me a sense of trust in God. I believe that celebrating the Eucharist daily has centered me more in God.  Living in the moment, having faith in God has centered my life. I prepared meal and served in the Castro. Zach  came in and helped. It was a great night. Deo Gratias! Thanks be to God!

“Living Unselfishly”

July 13, 2010

“Mt. 10:34-11:1  “Do not think that I have come to bring peace to the world.  I did not come to bring peace but the sword.”

The past few days have been tough for me. I feel lousy, and then after mass Saturday I spent time with a man who simply tore me to pieces about being “catholic”, about the way I dress.  The pastor of the church there who is under me continues the same criticism and I realize that when one lives consciously you pay a price for it.  They live in a “catholic” world, where people look the same, where they play at being “priests”, but when it comes down to living outside of themselves–they can not.  The self-centered person is the one who is caught up in controlling and preserving all for the self. Jesus is the opposite–he makes the best of himself, to give to others.And i am called to follow.Deo Gratias! Thanks be to God!

“Out of Step”

July 9, 2010

Mt. 10:16-23  “For my sake you will be brought to trial before the rulers and kings, to tell the good news to them and the gentiles”

A friend last night said it would have been good to take all of the Christian clergy in San Francisco to stand for peace. I laughed because I know that for the most part Christian clergy buy into the culture. Jesus calls us to be out of step with the culture and to speak the truth to power, but for the most part we Christians are the last to speak out. That is why much of the time I stand out, receive criticism.  I will speak the truth–regardless of the consequences. For so many years I was like so many clergy–I kept my mouth shut, but an old saying given to me by a clergy friend one time came to dominate my life: “There is no integrity in compromise.”  I have tried to live that th past years.  I served the meal last night, and came home and went to bed, totally exhausted. Deo Gratias! Thanks be to God!

“Go and Preach”

July 7, 2010

Mt. 10:1-7 St. Francis of Assisi said once:  “Preach the gospel, if necessary, use words.”  The fullness of the gospel depends upon each of us. Last night I preached the gospel as I fed eighty people and did outreach and talked to twenty or so more later; I preached the gospel this morning as I responded to an email about queer youth; I am preaching the gospel today when I have lunch with Dustin and give him his money and spend time with him; I am preaching the Gospel tonight when I do outreach; I will preach the Gospel in the pulpit on Saturday.  Preaching the Gospel is about showing the love of Christ, much of the times without words.  Whether I mention the name of Jesus or not I am preaching the Gospel by my actions. Deo Gratias! Thanks be to God!”

“We See Only Ourselves”

July 7, 2010

Mt. 9:32-38–“The Pharisees said:  “It is the chief of the demons who gives Jesus the power to drive out demons.”

The real social sin may be that we see whatever we want to see.  When we reject someone as the Pharisees did when they rejected Jesus. It is so easy to see the good we see in people as bad.  We see ourselves above all of life, all the animals and plant life.  In the Congo hunters are driving animals to exstinction to feed the growing population, rather then look at plant life as a way of feeding people. We are destroying our fish populations through out the world in the same way.  I see this with people on the street-they will take and take and let other people go with out. Jesus would have us see each other and nature as our brothers and sisters.  Deo Gratias! Thanks be to God!

“Suffering Makes Us Human”

July 5, 2010  “Suffering Makes Us Human”  Mt. 9:18-26–“A Jewish official came to Jesus. .and said: “My daughter has just died, but come and place your hands on her and she will live.”

Sometimes, the Jewish official, reminds us, it is only suffering that can enable us to move beyond our boundaries, dissolve our prejudices, and begin to see God where we have not seen God before. It is only when we suffer that we can truly see ourselves as human beings–no different than any other. I have suffered a lot through the years and it is that suffering that has forced me to see myself as simply a human being, and that we are all the same–we all hurt, we all die–and that for me life is about walking with people in their suffering.  We are all like the Jewish official–that is until we suffer–and then doors are opened if we allow them to be. I spent the night in Sacramento. Enjoyed the river and the peace. Back to work. Deo Gratias! Thanks be to God!

“No Exercise in Miracles”

July 4, 2010

“No Exercise in Miracles”  Jn. 20:24-29–St. Thomas, the Apostle

Life with God is not an exercise in miracles.  It is the process of taking on the mind of God.  We do not believe because we see signs and wonders.  We believe simply because we know within us that, for us, God is the center, the beginning and the end of life. God never promises an easy life.  St. Teresa of Avila was crossing a river and her carriage broke down and she screamed, “God you can be so mean.” In other wise we are not promised an easy life, not promised health, money–but we are promised God’s presence, God’s love in our finite human existence. Life with God is an exercise in faith, hope, and in simply having the faith that God is with us. I am going to the Haight, then to Polk to do outreach tonight. Deo Gratias! Thanks be to God!

“Being An Outcast”

July 3, 2010

Mt. 9:9-13–“Many tax collectors and other outcasts came joined Jesus and his disciples at the table.  Some Pharisees saw them and asked the disciples, “Why does your teacher eat with such people?”

To call myself a Christian but know no outcasts, socialize with no outcasts, share life with no outcasts, is to bring the whole definition of “Christian” into question.  For me that has been the heart of my journey through the years. I have always been an “outcast” in one manner or another–I hid it well, but the reality is that my sexuality made me an outcast growing up and in my early career. I am an outcast now because of the way I have chosen to live my life–to work with those no one seems to see, to live on the margins. And frankly for me I am more whole, more at peace then I have ever been.  I served the meal last night, and then went to the food bank today. I will do outreach later on Polk. Deo Gratias! Thanks be to God!