“Keep Focused on Jesus”

2 Cor. 12:1-10; Lk. 2:41-51 June 20 “Immaculate Heart of Mary”

“As for his mother, she kept all these things in ther heart”

Mary was focused in her life–on God and on her Son.  She put God above everything and followed him.  She protected her son and kept faith in him.  That is what attracts me to her–her heart for Jesus and for God.  There are times it is so difficult for me to stay focused. I visited and elderly woman in a nursing home today. I have known her for several years, but she has always been difficult, very difficult, and I have kept on seeing her. Today she let me have it.  She is Roman,  I am not, and so in her eyes I am not a “real priest”, and she basically told me that. It was a painful experience, but as I backed off I realized the pain she has lived with through her whole life. She hates men, probably dating back to being abandoned by her father, but while I understand that, that is no excuse to treat someone with the lack of respect and cruelty she treated me. For me to keep my heart on Jesus and God is to understand and forgive her, but also to take the words of Jesus literally: “when you are not received, to shake the dust off your feet.” It is really not about me–it is her, and there is nothing I can do. My heart hurts, it has hurt all night long, the rejection, and the pain. I keep thinking of how I do not think I want to get old. Lately the older people I have met have all been like her, my uncle is terrible, and I do not want to put people through that or put myself through that.Getting old sucks, but in God’s eyes there must be some grace in living a long life. And so for now I will keep my eyes focused on Jesus and take it one step at a time. Deo Gratis! Thanks be to God!”

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